To be blunt, I have been trying to write not only my blogs but also the second book. I was motivated and had the ideas with the characters being developed in my mind. Their conversations were running through my head a mile a minute. A true double-edged sword. I was inspired beyond belief, but then real life happens, jobs, people, health, my inner self, the double edge sword intervenes. This is where my motivation and the writing process get a little hard for me at times. This is a catch 22 and a double-edged sword in so many ways in all aspects of my life.
See, we all have inspiration, drive, passion, and gumption, mixed in with some self-defense barriers for different reasons in our lives. It can be based on positive factors, negative factors, and just factors that we cannot even explain why they make us think or feel what we do. While sometimes dragging others into it and not know even why.
That is the thing, though. We all have these in us to different degrees. We all have a past and present. We have tasted success and failures. We have faced trials and fallen as well as crushed them like a twig. We have had happiness, love, pain, and sorrow to a magnitude of extremes. Hence, all of these things are a double-edged sword as they influence today. As for their influences on the future, well that depends on you, doesn’t it?
All of the above make up my inspiration, though. See, I have a tragic flaw, though. That is the mind and a heart. In some cases, my mind has blocked things out, something’s I can relive like they just happened, and then my heart sometimes just can’t shake things both good and bad. The heart dwells on love and what has come with it.
At this point, I turn on the metaphorical blender dumping everything in with some metaphorical steroids and push the high-speed button. This is where my characters, stories, imaginary backstories, make-believe lives, funny scenarios, emotions, contradictions, crazy events, heart-pounding love, and their conversations are born.
It’s funny at times as much as I embrace these things to be successful and motivate me, they are indeed a double-edged sword. While writing at times, I feel like I have multiple therapy sessions at once with the characters and myself, LOL. I guess the thing is, with inspiration, you have to let it direct you but not control you and your emotions—a case of Shakspears’ tragic irony.
So if you’re a writer, while writing, live in those memories, fears, failures, tragedies, successes, loves, joys, and happy times. Then when you have written what you have to, throw them away for good. Easier said than done, I know. Do not live in them dragging you down or dragging someone down with you. Yes, again, a double-edged sword. This is the process, though. We all have things in us. It just depends on the way we use them that matters. Use them for a purpose, not a hindrance. Oops, another flawed irony of mine, lol.
Even the strongest, most successful have fallen and failed at one time. The thing is, what have you learned, and what will you do with it once you get back up? Also, who is really with you for the ups and those downs? Embrace them, for they will give you strength even if they are the ones you drag down with you for a moment. So, write, let your fingers fly a mile a minute, let your mind race through time, let your heart feel all, and make it all into a success story of a lifetime, even if that story is only yours!
PS. Taking your advice is another story as well, especially after you screw something up!
