First, I think of myself as a walking contradiction even to myself. I say this because I am a loner and, in my personal life, anti-social while being on the more serious side with an intense nature. I have no problem going to the gym for hours, hitting the heavy bag, weights, and treadmill without a word to anyone, and then home to my cat for a quiet night. She is a very demanding little lady. I can do this for days and not even think about talking to someone to have a conversation for the sake of talking to someone. It just does not even register in my thought process. Okay, except for checking in on mom! At the same time, to see me out and about, and we strike up a conversation, or at work, I can talk your head off. I can tell you all types of funny, crazy stories or hold a discussion on about anything. At the same time, listen if you have something new to share. My students think I am hilarious and off the wall with a sarcastic nature. I am both people all rolled into one.
Second, I am independent, live by the sword or die on my shield, do it my way, or move on to the next type of personality. So it is funny to most that when it comes to animals, they kind of run the show. Just ask my cat when she decides she wants to sit in my chair.
Third, this goes into this part of my life now being an author. Not much makes me second guess myself or my choices, even terrible ones that I know will end up bad. I will always roll the dice on myself. I dealt with being dyslexic, beat cancer, boxed, went after jobs, left them behind, hopped a plane, divorced, and moved around the world with no security net. As for me now publishing my first book with more to come, I find myself question myself at times. If you had run into me twenty years ago telling me I would have multiple college degrees, an educator, and now an author, I would have laughed at you hysterically. I am opening my challenges up to the world as for me being dyslexic and ADHD, a darker but creative side. I realize I have to connect with people, let alone total strangers, on a different level now with being an author. I am truly stepping out of a comfort zone, and it is a little nerving, to say the least. Some will like my writing; some with trash it. They may laugh as I switch from genre to genre, style to style, and ages. Still, I will use this like I have everything in my life, to fuel my steps forward even though it may seem backward at times. I have been told I will not be able to do this or that my entire life, yet I have proved them all wrong. So roll the dice with me as you join my journey on this new path with me.
